i care more about sex than people.

not just sexual intercourse. all i care about is an orgasm. i dont think about the aftermath. ever…

• how will our friendship change?
• will i actually want to talk to them?
• will they want to talk to me? 
• will i let it happen again?
• what if they catch feelings and i dont?

i dont care how they give it to me… i will take it and may not look back. i dont care. 

and this is a problem. but what to do, i dont know…